Friday, June 10, 2011


Wow.
Seems this blog's been forgotten!
But I like it.
The less visits the better.
:D

Just came in here to say..
Confidence is relative.
And so is beauty.

Wish I was pretty enough to not have to worry about anything.
TATA!
meowed at// 6/10/2011
Wednesday, June 1, 2011


I don't feel any better.
:(
I'm gonna die of boredom.
Ask me out tomorrow, please.
meowed at// 6/01/2011
Friday, March 18, 2011


I'M SCARED.

I'm scared that 2012 will be the end of this world.
After much yahoo-ing and google-ing and discussing with Jiayi.
Supported by events - all the tsunamis - that happened currently.

I'm scared for the thousands of millions of people who would be affected on 21May2012,
While all I can do is stay in Singapore, helpless.
This fear is made even more dark and final by scientific calculations - and how which country will bear the brunt of this eventual and deadly catastrophe.
They're guessing its Canada.

I'm afraid of the future.
I don't want anything to come so soon.
meowed at// 3/18/2011
Sunday, March 13, 2011


Back to blogging.
Haha. Seems like I always blog when I'm down.

Went to Woodlands Regional Library with Jiayi today, like what I've been doing for the past two days.
And on the way there I recalled lots of stuff that happened last year.
Like when I exited the tap-card area of the MRT station,
I remembered one time before the Olevels when I read the time wrongly on my watch and arrived an hour earlier!
And I still frantically msged James to tell him I'd be late although I was super duper early and embarrassed myself thoroughly! ><

When the days to the Olevels could be counted using our fingers, I remember stoning in the library with Sam, Jiayi and Chien, doing SS papers and swallowing the SS textbook whole.
And complaining about Mdm Sue and all the teachers who did their best to make us pass Olevels.
Not to mention gossiping about mao, and all those people!

Looking back, everything was really fun, and very very worth reminiscing.
Now, when I go to the same library, its almost like I'm a diferent person.
Its so hard to believe that my life's changed so much within months..

Instead of fun people, my class's full of (koreanspy)s.
Even jiayi agrees.

Sometimes, I really don't know how to continue.
I'm not that brave.
I don't wanna fight anymore.

I feel very emo...
Do you?
meowed at// 3/13/2011
Monday, February 21, 2011


So, how cool.
We're supposed to do tutorial3 econs questions.
And so far almost all the lectures and tutorials I've attended was about introduction of econs, introduction of econs, and introduction of econs.
So how am I seriously supposed to do all those questions?
Pissed to the max man.
Way to go, Juinying.
meowed at// 2/21/2011
Sunday, February 20, 2011


Library with friends today!
Finally a chance to let go again.

Gossiped about people and did homework :)
meowed at// 2/20/2011
Saturday, February 19, 2011


If only I could dump all my fear, my worry, my insecurity and my uncertainty into a trashbag and throw it into the Atlantic Ocean.

But I guess its impossible.

Why am I beginning to feel more and more inferior?

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CO and Guzheng camp was a blast.
My team's people were super nice, not at all like uberbitches in class.
We clicked instantly, all six of us, once we got to know each other's names.
And that night in classroom 4-30,
We danced to dynamite and camwhored - act cute, act sexy, act slutty, etcetc.
That was really once I could just be myself and not have to worry about it. :)

But now its back to reality.
These days, I can feel my confidence level dropping to a near zero.
All I can feel is I'm not good enough for anyone.
And cuz of that, I've decided.
From monday onwards, I'm not gonna try to fit in anymore.
I don't mind being a loner, I don't mind being an outcast.
I'll just live my life.

For one thing I'll be sure of, though.
I will practise to the best of my ability during co.
I will make sure I get that sheng part correct, regardless of the oh-so-often diaphragm aches, or exhaustion.
NYJCCO will get GwH.
It'll win (unnamed)CO.
Its a promise to myself.
And meanwhile, I'll continue learning cool songs from my cool zys partner.

Sometimes, life's a bitch.
But that doesn't mean I can bitch back.
meowed at// 2/19/2011