Wednesday, February 16, 2011
Finally, the second week out into a different world.
I still hate it, though.
Today was one of the happiest and the saddest day, all combined into one.
Maths was my only lesson for today, and had a 5hour break before my CO.
And amongst them, I was stoning alone in one of the tables at the library for an hour.
The table next to me were people from my class.
Somehow..
I didn't feel inclined to join in.
And that's exactly how I am now, in NYJC CT1112.
I don't talk, I don't fool around.
I don't even smile.
But on a brighter note,
At least I went for lunch with Presley9.
As always, we had a blast.
Brandon, Jonathan, Aaron and Mingwei helped everyone buy KOI to drink.
And we joked around and hung around the atrium and canteen.
With P9, we're never sad.
Or alone.
I also learnt an important lesson today.
In CO there is this Zhongyinsheng player who has about 10 years of experience.
Actually we knew each other from an MOE music camp,
But my first impression of him wasnt that good :/
Today we kinda cleared it up, and he taught me a new song, Turkish March or whatever on ZYS.
Which is damn cool, cuz I never knew I could play this kind of song.
And he was damn patient about it.
He also corrected some of my techniques, and I learnt a little more.
I really, really, really loved CO after that.
And suddenly I realized, all these years, I've been playing blindly.
Because ever since I graduated from primary school and left ge, there was never anyone to really correct me.
Perhaps these years have all been in vain.
But since I have a chance now, I'll use it wisely.
Maybe, today, I finally understand why people say "Your biggest rival is never others, but yourself."
Maybe, from today, I shall stop focusing on what other people are good at that I'm not, and start improving everything that I feel I'm not good enough at.
And maybe, just maybe, I can be good.
Just for once.
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2/16/2011
