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2011-06-10T06:17:00.000-07:00

Wow.
Seems this blog's been forgotten!
But I like it.
The less visits the better.
:D

Just came in here to say..
Confidence is relative.
And so is beauty.

Wish I was pretty enough to not have to worry about anything.
TATA!

2011-06-01T07:51:00.000-07:00

I don't feel any better.
:(
I'm gonna die of boredom.
Ask me out tomorrow, please.

2011-03-18T07:35:00.000-07:00

I'M SCARED.

I'm scared that 2012 will be the end of this world.
After much yahoo-ing and google-ing and discussing with Jiayi.
Supported by events - all the tsunamis - that happened currently.

I'm scared for the thousands of millions of people who would be affected on 21May2012,
While all I can do is stay in Singapore, helpless.
This fear is made even more dark and final by scientific calculations - and how which country will bear the brunt of this eventual and deadly catastrophe.
They're guessing its Canada.

I'm afraid of the future.
I don't want anything to come so soon.

2011-03-13T08:47:00.001-07:00

Back to blogging.
Haha. Seems like I always blog when I'm down.

Went to Woodlands Regional Library with Jiayi today, like what I've been doing for the past two days.
And on the way there I recalled lots of stuff that happened last year.
Like when I exited the tap-card area of the MRT station,
I remembered one time before the Olevels when I read the time wrongly on my watch and arrived an hour earlier!
And I still frantically msged James to tell him I'd be late although I was super duper early and embarrassed myself thoroughly! ><

When the days to the Olevels could be counted using our fingers, I remember stoning in the library with Sam, Jiayi and Chien, doing SS papers and swallowing the SS textbook whole.
And complaining about Mdm Sue and all the teachers who did their best to make us pass Olevels.
Not to mention gossiping about mao, and all those people!

Looking back, everything was really fun, and very very worth reminiscing.
Now, when I go to the same library, its almost like I'm a diferent person.
Its so hard to believe that my life's changed so much within months..

Instead of fun people, my class's full of (koreanspy)s.
Even jiayi agrees.

Sometimes, I really don't know how to continue.
I'm not that brave.
I don't wanna fight anymore.

I feel very emo...
Do you?

2011-02-21T06:19:00.000-08:00

So, how cool.
We're supposed to do tutorial3 econs questions.
And so far almost all the lectures and tutorials I've attended was about introduction of econs, introduction of econs, and introduction of econs.
So how am I seriously supposed to do all those questions?
Pissed to the max man.
Way to go, Juinying.

2011-02-20T06:16:00.000-08:00

Library with friends today!
Finally a chance to let go again.

Gossiped about people and did homework :)

2011-02-19T06:50:00.000-08:00

If only I could dump all my fear, my worry, my insecurity and my uncertainty into a trashbag and throw it into the Atlantic Ocean.

But I guess its impossible.

Why am I beginning to feel more and more inferior?

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CO and Guzheng camp was a blast.
My team's people were super nice, not at all like uberbitches in class.
We clicked instantly, all six of us, once we got to know each other's names.
And that night in classroom 4-30,
We danced to dynamite and camwhored - act cute, act sexy, act slutty, etcetc.
That was really once I could just be myself and not have to worry about it. :)

But now its back to reality.
These days, I can feel my confidence level dropping to a near zero.
All I can feel is I'm not good enough for anyone.
And cuz of that, I've decided.
From monday onwards, I'm not gonna try to fit in anymore.
I don't mind being a loner, I don't mind being an outcast.
I'll just live my life.

For one thing I'll be sure of, though.
I will practise to the best of my ability during co.
I will make sure I get that sheng part correct, regardless of the oh-so-often diaphragm aches, or exhaustion.
NYJCCO will get GwH.
It'll win (unnamed)CO.
Its a promise to myself.
And meanwhile, I'll continue learning cool songs from my cool zys partner.

Sometimes, life's a bitch.
But that doesn't mean I can bitch back.

2011-02-16T05:16:00.000-08:00

Finally, the second week out into a different world.

I still hate it, though.

Today was one of the happiest and the saddest day, all combined into one.
Maths was my only lesson for today, and had a 5hour break before my CO.
And amongst them, I was stoning alone in one of the tables at the library for an hour.
The table next to me were people from my class.
Somehow..
I didn't feel inclined to join in.
And that's exactly how I am now, in NYJC CT1112.
I don't talk, I don't fool around.
I don't even smile.

But on a brighter note,
At least I went for lunch with Presley9.
As always, we had a blast.
Brandon, Jonathan, Aaron and Mingwei helped everyone buy KOI to drink.
And we joked around and hung around the atrium and canteen.
With P9, we're never sad.
Or alone.

I also learnt an important lesson today.
In CO there is this Zhongyinsheng player who has about 10 years of experience.
Actually we knew each other from an MOE music camp,
But my first impression of him wasnt that good :/
Today we kinda cleared it up, and he taught me a new song, Turkish March or whatever on ZYS.
Which is damn cool, cuz I never knew I could play this kind of song.
And he was damn patient about it.
He also corrected some of my techniques, and I learnt a little more.
I really, really, really loved CO after that.
And suddenly I realized, all these years, I've been playing blindly.
Because ever since I graduated from primary school and left ge, there was never anyone to really correct me.
Perhaps these years have all been in vain.
But since I have a chance now, I'll use it wisely.

Maybe, today, I finally understand why people say "Your biggest rival is never others, but yourself."

Maybe, from today, I shall stop focusing on what other people are good at that I'm not, and start improving everything that I feel I'm not good enough at.

And maybe, just maybe, I can be good.
Just for once.

2011-02-13T04:34:00.000-08:00

Hi :)
Went for the safari zoo run yesterday with my darling girls Yuenyee, Weinie, Desiree, Gouyue and Liwen.

The run was alright,
But thanks to my not running for over half a year and my eating and drinking directly before the run,
I got stitches almost the whole race. :(
So I finished a 6.2km run in 1hour5minutes ZOMG.
Fail ttm. :'(

Through the run,
I realised that actually life's really like a race.
While running, I kept getting tired and thinking of giving up.
But Desiree, who ran with me, kept encouraging me to go on.
We even set short term targets, like overtaking people who were ahead of us and so on, not forgetting to stop by each new attraction to see the pretty animals! ;)

And from that, we can piece it all together.
In a race, like in life, the ultimate goal is to reach the finishing line knowing that you ran (lived).
And throughout the race, scenaries change, but there'll always be someone to cheer us on and make sure we don't die.
Setting short term targets that'll help us achieve our long term goals will be motivation for us to keep going and not stop.
Of course, life always has a beautiful sight..... it just depends on whether we want to see it or not!

:)
And with that, here's a super nice quote from our dear Rongher:

' Life is like a piano.
The white keys represent happiness,
And the black keys represent sadness.
But as you go through life's journey,
Remember that the black keys make the music, too. '

2011-02-11T04:54:00.001-08:00

Today's the last fun day of my entire JC life. :(
'Cause its the last day I have with Presley Nine.

We played some games just now, during the DISC profilling.
I am now IS omg, as opposed to my super-nice and shy SI last year!
Besides my graphs were super concentrated..
OMG what does that mean?
My og mates suggested my personality is changing under stress.
Which is true.
'Cause I've been very, very sad these few days.

Back to DISC profilling.
Had to play this super fun game that required us to stack twelve foots together vertically to form a 2m foot wall!
Being lighter, I had to be lifted up by the guys to stack my feet on the top with some other lighter girls.
Which sucked.
Cuz it took real long and balancing was super wobbly.
Not to mention the awkwardness of sitting on some guy's shoulder's :(
But it was quite fun.
Though we didnt win, we're all winners, cuz we perservered and never thought of giving up..
Which is probably the kind of attitude we ought to have :(

Next monday..
Another start.
I hate I hate I hate my CT.

2011-02-01T07:38:00.001-08:00

I'm speechless.
NYJC orientation was like fucking fun.
Had disco night and water games today, which bonded all of us pretty well.
I especially liked the moment when presley9 let loose with everybody in the hall!

And its okay even if we didnt win the family trophy or whatever,
cuz i believe we all know that deep down inside,
we know we're the best, and that we're a team.

Today, I learnt that not everything goes on smoothly in life, and we don't always get what we want.
But the important thing is to not dwell on the past, move on, make new friends and stay happy.
And even if our friends are in different schools, we can still meeet up as long as we have the heart to.
I'll try my best to be happy from now on, by hook or by crook.
Confidence!

PRESLEY PRESLEY FIGHT FIGHT FIGHT!

2011-01-30T05:46:00.001-08:00

Back from the first outing with Presley9.
Can say that we got a little more bonded.
And I finally exposed my true colours.

Every girl stands a chance.

The wind howled loudly, sweeping up a dozen wrinkled brown leaves in its path.
She sat in her normal seat in the bus, two rows from the back, and watched silently as the trees swayed and people with umbrellas went scrunching through the muddy grass. The wind whistled, then died down a little.
She watched as the bus took her further and further away from the familiar roads, and deeper and deeper into newer places that were stranger to her.
Scenaries change.
All that remained behind were the memories of who she were, and how she cried when she was forced to leave.
She watched, resigned, as the rain pelted down on the bus windows, journeying on to a whole new place.
Alone.

2011-01-25T06:25:00.000-08:00

I'm like inspired by Gouyue and Liwen's posts about CSI Experience,
So I shall talk about it too.

Went to CSI Experience with Maomao, Desireee, Gouyue and Liwen.
Damn fun, hahaa.
Love the trampoline and the swings!
And of course the chickuns.
Done!!!!

And my back hurts like hell.
During the class chalet, some friends asked me go into this bucket like thing in the playground.
And then they spun me round and round.
Almost flew out ><
Back still hurts really really really much!
But I think there were ppl with worse injuries.
Like my sam, who fell off the super big wheel. :(

Class chalet was tons of fun.
We cycled around the downtown east area.
And because I'm the only one who can't cycle, I had to double with Karwuai.
Thanks! :)
Afterthat we went bowling, eating, wii and stuff.
Which were all sooooo much fun.
Talked to classmates <3 in the bedroom upstairs after!
Got to throw peanuts from 1st floor to the second floor's windows too.
After lots of jumping, I succeeded in throwing a peanut in haha.
But of course I was not as pro as the guys downstairs who threw peanuts up the second floor while we were sleeping!
Les-ed around with my Jiayi and my Sam after waking up in the morning.
And found Aaron laoda curled up in a mattress downstairs.
He specially stayed so to take care of us!!!! :)
Super glad to be invited to all this fun.

I guess thats all! ;)
Goodluck for posting results!
I hope everyone can get what they want. :)

2011-01-20T06:05:00.000-08:00

After a day of CSI Experience and tour of Science Centre with my four darling girls,
all I can say is:

I WILL WORK HARD TO BECOME CSI CJY!!!!!!

:)

2011-01-18T04:46:00.001-08:00

Wow, it's been a few months since I posted and this blog is dead!
Shall now post to make myself shuang.

Life's been a rollercoaster of ups and downs recently.
And there's just something I'd like to say:

Sorry, Smirkies.
Sorry for being such an absentee friend.
Sorry for not going kbox with you all,
Sorry for not being free for CSI experience, the movie and all.
But we'll still get together some time right?
That's what Tara told me.
Everytime we go out, things just get so fun.
I miss all of you: weinie, yuenyee, ziqin, desiree, gouyue and liwen :)

Just got back from nyjcco.
My senior told me that'll be impossible.
Sometimes I feel like life's playing a joke on me!
Everyone's gonna have their wishes come true.
Except mine.

Maybe, for once, I should be contented with what I have now, and stop brooding about what'll possibly happen tomorrow.
Maybe, for now, all I can do is wait. And hope. And believe.
Because miracles don't come true if I don't even have faith, right?
Or maybe, i'm losing my mind.
Or am I seriously just kidding myself?

2010-07-28T04:25:00.001-07:00

Had a supernice celebration today with suona-sheng!
The cake was super super super super nice! :D
And I had fun bringing them on the "treasure hunt"!
Credits to Ziqin and Yizhen for the hard workk!~

Train-ed home with Junsian.
I realised that everytime I go home with him I learn something new.
Today its about letting go.
Though I think I'll never learn to.

Dilemma :0(
Shouldnt have kei kiang-ed and tried so many...... :(
RAWR.

2010-07-22T05:51:00.001-07:00

Haiz.
Was gonna say smth, but Gouyue's post motivated me, a little.
Going to say it anyway:

Just Give Up On Me.
Really.

If anybody reads this post comment only negative remarks okay.
Cuz I don't feel like hearing anything else.
I'm not worthy of you.
Please dun waste your time time time time time.
Just let me go.

2010-07-17T02:27:00.000-07:00

' BE STRONG.
Although its difficult today to see beyond the sorrow,
May looking back into the memory help comfort you tomorrow.'

Man! Prelim1 is over!!!!!!!
The sky looks blue-er, the air smells cleaner, the grass looks greener, the exam mood has vanished!
Pardon me for my no-life life ;P

Today was awesome.
Went out with CliqueSmirkies minus Gouyue and Liwen.
(They went to pa tor! ;P)
To shop. Not really shop actually.
Just to get time for ourselves.
Sounds wrong, but still..
Went to Takashimaya.
And my mom french braided my hair! Hehe.
It felt soooooo nice to be out in the fresh air again!
After that I went to MarinaSquare/SuntecCity with Ziqin.
Was quite funn.

Yesterday was alright tooooo.
Decided to go back to Co for fun,
And there was cake!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JUNE-JULY BABIES!
Sneaked out with Ziqin, Junsian and Jacky after awhile.
Camwhored outside 2C classroom :D
I was almost as tall as Junsian when I tiptoed!!!!! :D

Yesterday's yesterday I went out with Ziqin to Orchard.
We went there to eat ;P

Last Saturday went out with bestfren.
Someone made me wait for ten minutes!!!
I'll remember that forever man.

The days in between were just filled with textbooks, textbooks and textbooks.
Had fun anyway ;)
Don't we always?
Realised something.. shocking.
But its too late to ever apologise or ask for that back.
Its lost.
And if its lost, lost it will remain.
But it doesn't change how I missed you.
Stay happy, world!

~Juinying ;-)

2010-06-25T22:30:00.001-07:00

Appeared offline for the first time in my entire life.
Haiz. :(
Can't believe it too.
Anyway:

Happy Birthday To You
Happy Birthday To You
Happy Birthday To You-u
Happy Birthday To you.

26June is the best present from Heaven.
Cuz you were born on that date! :D
I really really hope you'd still be back.
Be her guardian angel.
Rest In Peace.

Even though today's clouds are nice and white and fluffy..
They'll come down as rain sometime.
And the sky is blue, just like the memory of you.

HappyBirthday!

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Changed to orange and blue!
Which soccer team is that? Hahaha ;P

2010-06-25T04:13:00.000-07:00

Visited a new website today:
http://sixbillionsecrets.com

A very very very nice website.
Worth a visit. :D

2010-06-18T06:12:00.000-07:00

Hey world! :D

Discovered a new song today..
Ironically, it belongs to the Oldies.
Coming up: Emotions by the Bee Gees :D

Its over and done, but the heartache lives on inside And who is the one you're clinging to instead of me tonight
And where are you now? Now that I need you
Tears on my pillow where ever you go
I'll cry me a river that leads to your ocean
You'll never see me fall apart

(chorus)
In the words of a broken heart
It's just emotion that has taken me over
Tied up in sorrow, lost in my soul
But if you don't come back
Come back to me, darling
You know there'll be nobody left in this world to hold me tight
Nobody left in this world to kiss goodnight
Goodnight
Goodnight
Goodnight

I'm there at your side, part of all the things you are
But you got a part of someone else
You've gone to find your shining star

(Chorus)

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Its a very very nice song.
Which neatly sums up every single thing I've been feeling for these few days.
:-(

Today I had a fun day.
I'm really glad that Jingwen and Jiamin accepted the farewell gifts.
And also Yizhen and Jacky, who didn't mind the lame card.
Thank you!

Went to attend Jiamin's concert, was cheering for her all thruout.
Her concert was super super super nice.
Though not the whole Suona-Sheng section went to watch her perform.
Saw lotsa people from last year's camp.
Glenda, Kelvin, and some I forgot =x
After the concert we had dinner at Lau Par Sat before walking to Raffles Place.
And yeah, went home from there :D

My unthoughtfulness and insensitiveness kicked in again when I was in the train..
Haiz.
I should have held my tongue.
And to the person who sat on my left: I think you're very, very brave!

But I know that deep inside, I'd never ever be that courageous to stand up and smile despite everything.

2010-06-17T05:50:00.000-07:00

OMG I can't believe I'm such a total loser.
SUCH. A. TOTAL. LOSER.
I know I'm stupid to only discover a widely known fact now.
But still.

I should have known better than to fuck it all up.
I could have done better.
Should have done better.
Now thanks to my usual, un-consciencious, un-thoughtful, disorganised, untidy self
This whole thing is totally ruined.
My complete two days effort is gone.
Fuck.

Haiz, but whatever.
Tomorrow's the day.
Wish me good luck!

We cannot cure the world of sorrow

2010-06-15T05:12:00.000-07:00

I'm back! :-)

Watched Ultraman today again.
And I cried while watching it! =x
I swear I'm completely addicted.
"Ultraman is a nice and meaningful show" (Ziqin)
But crying while watching it is totally retarded :-(

Went out with Ziqin later today.
To Plaza Singapura and Orchard.
Reason shall remain a secret till Friday!
OMG can't wait till Friday hahahaa.
Jiamin's performing! :-)

Anw, this is what Ultraman Moebius said:
The important thing is to stay and fight till the very last,
Not give up at the very end,
Cuz the power of faith will ultimately become courage.

Which the UltraBrothers displayed very very well
When they fought three scary and powerful Yapool monsters.
With their light energy totally/almost gone :-(
But they won eventually, cuz they regained their light energy thru having confidence.
And Ultraman Moebius soooooooo shuai!
His light energy tank is bright sapphire! :D
My fav colour. Hehe.

Off to stone! :D

Que sera, sera

2010-06-13T05:02:00.000-07:00

Back again :-)

Yesterday went to a family gathering.
Was soooo bored, in the end called bestfren.
Hahaa, and I finally found out something I wanted to know for a long time.

Thursday had Passing Out Parade.
It was really sad and I totally didn't feel like talking about it the days following.
The time when we were in the LT, I was trying to cry cuz I was supposed to cry.
But after that I didn't even need to try.
Didn't cry in the end, broke my promise to superjuniors.
So sorry :(

Didn't dare to open the presents initially.
Think I was the only sec4 whose present got opened by other sec4s.
Cuz I was afraid that once I opened the gift I'd really graduate.
I know that was childish, but I sincerely wanted somemore time to be again a Sheng-er.
Haiz.

Took pictures with seniors and juniors in Co room:
Cheuktow, Samuel, Pinardy, Jiamin, Jingwen..
Haiyah.
If I had a wish, I'd never want this to end.

Watched Ultraman today.

Ultraman Hikari, the blue Ultraman, atoned for his sins and fought the evil monsters.

The show always features happy endings, cuz in the end, they always save the Earth.

It must be wonderful to live in the Land Of Lights..

I can't believe I'm such a loser OMFG.

Believing in fictional stuff that'll never come true in reality.

On a happier note, I'm eating Greentea Cheesecake now!

Weird flavour but nice taste.

:-)

2010-06-08T03:52:00.000-07:00

I am such a loser.
Tmrw I'm gonna have an audition to some Jc.
And I just chose my choice piece today.
Wonderful :(

Now I gotta quickly finish my dinner and chiong coursework.
I didn't have lunch today :(
But at least I saw Jiamin and Jingwen meow.

I wish, I wish, I wish, I wish.

I think you were right to do that though.
Cuz you deserve better.

2010-06-05T22:44:00.001-07:00

I know I'm not supposed to be sad.
But how could I not be!
I'm here to ask:

why
Why
WHY
WHY?!
WHY???!!!!!

Urgh. This is soooo infuriating.
You have no idea how I wish I was a better friend too.
Am doing SS Mindmap now.
Wheeeeeesh.
Sec4 is every bit as bad as I imagined.
But hey, like what my tuitionteacher used to tell me:
Tomorrow will be better!

To _____;
I don't care what you say.
I still BELIEVE in friendships.
Unlike what you said, I'm not naive and I'm definitely not a dreamer >:-(

2010-06-04T07:49:00.001-07:00

The night before Johor
Was super fun.
Junhong brought his laptop and Rongyao and Yanxu kept snatching from me!
Den I didn't get to watch my 7pm show or Koizora!!! :(
After that Jiamin came from her Music Camp to help me get the com.
But we lost :(

And we shared two sleeping bags with them..
Cuz Yanxu, Rongyao and I didn't bring.
Then they took our pillows and the blanket also.
In the end Jiamin and I got so hungry we went to beg Junhong and Jiaqing to bring us out to eat.
Went to some coffeeshop and drank Teh Bing.
Then we cannot sleep le.
Spent the whole night in 2G gossipping =x

Johor
Went to humtum Yanxu early in the morn, haha.
Then got on the bus, messaged mom and set off.
Jiamin passed sticky sweets around and I had fun sleeping and listening to music.
The first thing I thought when I reached the Chung Hwa High was: OMG.
There were students everywhere, and they were very warm.
After that we had a long lecture, where I spent stiffling yawns.
Den came the funtime, where we went into their classrooms and had lessons with them.
The guys were amazingly shuai. ><
And we exchanged numbers, emails and facebook account names.

Mushroom head damn shuai! :D
But he got girlfr le :'(

Camwhored in the dragon fruit farm's big swing.
With Jingwen Jiamin and Ziqin.
Enjoyed myself alot that day.

Today
I reread all my posts from last year.
And I realised I changed alot.
I no longer have the enthusiasm for life and I emo too much.
So I made up my mind that today will be the last day I'm sad.
Even if something provoked me, I will keep posting happy things.
Life's too short to be unhappy.

Smile with me! :D

2010-05-24T05:34:00.000-07:00

Human life is so fragile.
Haiz.
And cancer's a horrible killer.
Haiz.
Learn to treasure what you have, people!

2010-05-22T21:32:00.000-07:00

Ooooh, its been another week.
Was so touched when my cousin was nice to me just now.
Hahahs.
Although I really had nothing to say and I still said hi.
Okay, random.

Another random thing I heard last last week while sitting behind Ripeng and Gabriel during recess assm:

Ripeng: Gabriel, you got stung by a bee. Haha.
Gabriel: ...
Ripeng: And Zak got stung by the whole beehive.

LOL.
Its quite funny when you hear Ripeng laugh.
Haha.

Another one, also by Ripeng:
Mr Green is bathing when he heard the doorbell ring.
He wrapped his towel around the lower half of his body and hurried downstairs.
When he opened the door, he noticed a Brownie selling cookies.
And when she asked him "Sir do you want any cookies?", his towel fell.
The Brownie saw everything and screamed and ran across the road w/o looking out for cars.
A speeding car collided with her and she died.
What's the moral of the story?

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Answer: Never cross the road when the Green man is flashing. Haha.

2010-05-20T07:10:00.001-07:00

I understand that she was too nice to bring you down on her blog.
However, I do not extend the same courtesy.
I shall do it on mine then.
Dedicated to CJL.

Hey there Hippo,
It wasn't very nice of you to call her and her friends idiots, was it?
Her friends are my friends.
And I guess you've laid out all your physical and mental uglyness and selfishness for every one to see.
How H liked you, I never knew.
Maybe at that time he had his eyes covered with stamps.
Big, postage stamps.
But one thing I fucking know, its that I never knew he would fall for an insuperior freak like you.
As compared to her and her friends, you're one fucking toad.
Brown, flat and undescribably ugly.
So please go bitch around somemore, to showcase your magnamity.
Oh, come on, your friends can sure do better than ONLY issuing disparaging remarks on facebook.
So mature of them.
And while doing that, you can just do me a favour and stuff your mouth with flies.
Because I think the flies look nicer than your rotten teeth.

I'm not mentioning your name because I dont wanna get her into trouble.
Mainly because you have such a shit name.
Hope you burn in hell!

Warmest regards.

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This post is for show.
Sorry for the uncouth language.
Was really pissed.

2010-05-14T07:45:00.000-07:00

Scarlette's back to blog again :D

"The past memories were precious, and that's all I have left."

I'm not a good story-teller.
Sometimes I prefer to leave things unexplained.
They're clearer in a sense that way.

I know that many things in life are unpredictable, unchangeable.
I understand that Earth never revolves around us.
Sometimes when I look back,
I wonder if you, like me, keep and treasure all those crap.
I daren't hope for much.
But I hope that Í'll be remembered, regardless, as someone who made you smile when you're sad.

"Some people leave in hope that others will follow."
Rongher told me this.
Each word very true.
Maybe that's why people commit suicide.
To reunite with the ones they loved who have left them too early.
Jumping off takes guts.

Life pretty much sucks right now,
There's no other word to describe it otherwise.
But I guess we all have to keep on living, don't we?
I have 5 more months left with everyone in Chung Cheng High Yishun.
Just 5 more months.
Only 5 more months.
5 months is a long time, anything can happen in 5 months.

And oh, on a happier note,
I PASSED HCL. :D
PAPER2.
Yup, that may be nothing to most people.
But it meant alot to me.

2010-05-07T06:17:00.000-07:00

Today I just want to say..
F&N wasn't as bad as I thought. :D

I'm officially down with fever D:
Yesterday when I went to school I was still happy and okay.
Then from first period onwards, my temperature rose steadily from 37.7 to 38.6!!
Almost died in the aircon com lab during F&N coursework sia.
Totally felt like I was walking on air.
And the fever refused to subside!　:(
Alot of people are sick now.
Must be because I too pretty LOL
No link.
Haha.
Die. I'm starting to get lamer and lamer.

2010-05-03T06:05:00.000-07:00

Sorry for the long period of unexplained absence.
And sorry for the previous post.
It was typed in a fit of anger, but I'm not gonna remove it.
After all, aren't blogs meant for this very purpose?
Hmm, what can I say?
Life sucks damn much, even more recently.

1, 4D _________ (shan't say)

2, My attitude's getting from bad to worse.
I totally lack motivation, I tell you.
And I don't have any drive to perfom no more.

3, I almost bit off my index finger doing POA yesterday.
With every wrong answer, I bit myself once.
There were 4 questions, and 2/3 parts for each question.
I redid each part almost 5 times. :D

4, I regretted not going out today with classmates.
I spent the whole day sleeping anyway.

5, Tomorrow is gonna suck.
I just know it in my veins.
3 double periods + SS + Emaths.

6, The optimistic feel the chinese compre passage gave me is gone!
BooHoo.
I really liked the passage and decided to be optimistic for once.
But, haha.
Came to naught.

7, (that's my register number!)
I got a new motto!
Which is:

Don't look back, don't give up.
If you screw up, say fuck :D

That's all, folks :D
Ooooh, and I spent part of today watching Tom and Jerry.
HAHA.

2010-04-10T06:42:00.001-07:00

I am blogging today because I am really very sad.
I am sad because of something that happened on Friday.
I finally understood how you felt, and why you left.

Today I am going to blog my real exact feelings.
Because I don't think the people I'm going to talk about reads this crap anymore.
They use their precious eyesight for better and more constructive things.
Never this.

I never felt so alone in my life.
Sitting huddled up on the cold cement floor outside 4D, I thought of crying.
But I couldn't.
If I did, they might think I was a weakling.
And I'll fufill the whole criteria of being a total loser.
Who never ever battled anything alone. Nor succeeded.
I swallowed my pride and my tears and went back.
They were still taking their own sweet time.
Luckily she saw me. And she accompanied down.
But in that twenty minutes I was totally alone, I thought everything through.
So that was how having no friends felt like.
So that was the feeling of being abandoned.
So that was why she left.
That was why.

The final straw came at 1345.
Lessons were finally over; HCL let out late.
Moments later, after a few phonecalls, I realised I was totally alone.
I sat in class, wishing with all my might she was here.
I absentmindedly flipped through pages of some random book,
Meanwhile suppressing the salty tears of disappointment that had somewhat managed to gather.
I blinked furiously.
No one cared.

All my life, I didn't know what loneliness was.
But I finally understood.
This was never real; never a true thing.
It was as superficial as it seemed, just that the seraphic smiles, the chatter and laughter veiled and shrouded the facade and the forced concern.

It was just in the span of a day I learnt my lessons.
Like what she said, they never cared about anything.
For once, I took that into consideration.
What are friendships?
They are bullshit.

2010-04-08T06:26:00.000-07:00

I'm here just to say that..

I LOVE 4D'10!
I dunno why,
But everytime I'm really really sad or something
And I talk to my classmates,
Everything turns out fine in the end..

That's just what happened today.
___ may be better and much more qualified academically,
But when it comes to classmates,
I'm sure mine are the best! :D

Thankyou Jiayi, James, Karwuai, Jiaqing, Likwee.
And amaths people who stayed back for chatting,
And to all dance mates, who were very patient and nice! :D

2010-04-01T06:15:00.000-07:00

After sportsday, today was awesome!
Went to a dance studio booked by Tianyuan and her boyfr to learn to dance,
With Zuhairah, Kaiying, Jiayi, Sam-sam-sam-sam Samantha, Xinru, Grace, Rafiqin and Karwuai.
Was damn damn fun!!!!!
Hadn't had soooo much fun since dunno-when.

And the best thiing was, Jiayi, Zuh, Xinru and Tianyuan were really very patient.
When anyone of us couldn't catch the moves,
They put everything in slow motion, complete with counting and cool illustrations.
Like "1,2,3,4, draw big circle draw small circle, anyhow anyhow, pull down your pants, up.."etc.
Then everything became much much easier to remember.
:DDDDDD Thank you!!!!
And everything became very funny.

Never regretted coming to 4D.
Never, never :D

FACADE

2010-03-22T23:08:00.000-07:00

The 297th post :D
OMG can't believe how slow I am.

Yesterday..
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JIELIN!
OTANJOUBI OMAEDATOU GOZAIMASU!!!!! :D

Cats forever.
Haha, and may all your dreams come true.

I realise I always wish people the same thing.
Maybe its time to change ;)

Today there's eLearning.
Which is soooooo sian.
I missed school alot.

The first thing that my tuition teacher told me when I onlined at 7+ was :
Girl, its time for anime!!!

:( Rawr.

And then Junwei told me that actually he can "log off now" cuz there's "nothing for art"
@ 12+am! :( Double Rawr.

Kaiying was busy reading her manga tooo,
But she talked to me and responded to my meow(s).

Oh, and Ms Wong sounded uber cute in her lil'message for us all!
Don't you think?

Just now when I was reading thru the F&N slides..
I saw a body without muscle, blood vessels, and the skin.
In other words, I saw the entire digestive system.
And our alimentary canal. Which is 10m long.
And our large intestine, 1.5m, small intestine, 5m.
I seriously can't imagine that thing growing inside me.
After viewing all the slides, I felt so dirty.

I'm school-sick :(
Miss schoool, my desk, and all the people who sit around me.
With the single exception of the one sitting in front of me =x
But at least tmrw's WEDNESDAY, and there's gonna be C _ K _ !!!!!!!
And I can lick all the frosting off then.
YAY!!!!!! :D And spray Cream at people.
All my love to the woodwind section! :D :D :D
Super looking forward to tmrw!

~ Don't cry because its over, smile because it happened ~

2010-03-18T07:30:00.000-07:00

I want to remembered as the girl who always smiles even when her heart is broken and the one who can always brighten up your day even when she cannot brighten up her own.

Haha, just kidding.
But that's a nice quote.
Jielin told me that.

2010-03-05T06:16:00.001-08:00

Imagine this:

You're a father of two children, a girl and a boy, and you're on a vacation in China.

The bus is travelling through somewhat rural areas and your son wants a toilet break.
The bus stops by an old, stand-by-itself toilet.
Holding your daughter's hand, you choose to wait outside.
You bring your daughter and son down the bus, and your son enters the stinky cubicle.

After a immensely long wait, your son doesn't come out.
Your desperation, fuelled by worry and annoyance, escalates and you rush in, leaving your daughter waiting outside.
The toilet is completely empty.
There is nobody in there.

Frantic with anxiety, you rush outside.
There is no one either.
For a moment, you stand there, lost. Adrift.
You panic.
You search in all four directions.
No daughter.

Imagine this:

You're now alone in a rural province in China.
A moment ago, you were accompanying your two children to the washroom.
And in the course of a few minutes, both your children are gone.
Your daughter is aged 11.
Your son is 14 this year.

A perfect age.
For child trafficking, sexual slavery and child abuse.
You break down into hysterics.
You blame yourself.
But at this point, what does it matter?

---

This is a true story.
It happened to my aunt's friend's mahjong buddy.
He lost his children to shadow last December.
They were on a holiday in China.
The children have yet to be found.

Other people tell similar stories.

My piano teacher told me that in Cambodia, girls as young as six were sold, their parents being trapped in the vicious cycle of poverty, for money.
The girls enter brothels, where they are beaten, whipped and raped mercilessly and relentlessly to have sex with much older, stinky men.
Six year-olds.
Think of the wounded innocence.

My brother commented that some children were abused and tortured, their legs and arms broken, courtesy of their cruel captors, to prevent them from escaping.. From running away.
Then, they are made to squat in narrow alleys, and beg from people, tourists.
Their sad, hollow eyes, their shabby clothing, their hair matted with dirt and grime, and their grosteque scars spells pity.

Maybe as you're reading this, children are being captured and made to work seven days a week, fourteen hours a day in sweatshops.
They get beaten if they do not do their work properly.
Children.
Should children ever be treated like this?

Of course, it is only right to agree that yes, children shouldn't be.
They should have a happy childhood, not one that is so marred by the evils of human nature.
But it is all say.
The UN has done some to help.
They have conducted raids on brothels and rescued the girls and children from their living hell.
But is it enough?

Thousands of children, maybe teenagers, die because of these atrocities.
Cuz we're living in Singapore, we don't get how it feels like.
We should really put ourselves into their shoes, and reflect.
How do you think it feels like to be shunned from humanity?
How does it hurt to be whipped?
Why do you have to sleep with stinky old men everyday and get no food to eat in return?
Why are these things happening to you?

Perhaps you may think this doesn't concern you.
Actually, it all does.
These tortured souls are people that suffer in silence.
Their dreams are only illusions, and are never answered.
People die everyday.
Maybe, as you complain about how stressed life is, someone out there is reaching out, for the tiniest bit of hope, and the littlest tinge of help, to keep them alive.
What they make in sweatshops may be what you are wearing now.
The products, made with their blood, sweat and tears..

I don't know how to help either, being merely a student.
But I know we can definitely help to raise awareness.
When going to third-world countries where crime rates are high, move in groups.
Do not go alone.

Donate money generously to the poor.
With money, children will not need to be sold..
Parents will not have to bear the emotional burden of seperation.
And maybe, just maybe, someone will not get sold and you have made a change.
At least its something.

---------

And PS: Aaronchew, don't be too demoralized! Don't look back, just continue striving for the best and perservere :D

ONE MORE

2010-02-21T02:15:00.001-08:00

February's ending!
Which is not not not not good.
Because February's the most unique month - 28 days! :D

Haven't posted for so long, hahaha.
Sorry. Was lazy + busy.
I love Sec4 life! :D Kinda.
I think I blog about what I can rmbr lah :)

1) CNY- went overseas with cousins. Gamble gamble gamble. Muahahaha. + chionged SS homework every single day. That woman is nuts. Hello, I am Chinese and I celebrate new year! :(

2) Wesnesday- Back to school, back to sectionals! Love wednesdays now, :D hehe. Cuz no supp classes and I can walk home with Jingwen.

3) Thursday- Total Defence thing for Assembly! Was totally nice to watch. Kept thinking of Rongher throughout the whole thing :) Hehe

4) Friday- Was the best day ever, I think. CO performed at TPY east CC, which is opp PeiChunPublicSchool! Got to know more about Jiamin's little friend who is so so so cute! And gossiped with Ziqin about ___ in 232 on the way home :) Hehe

5) Saturday- ponned PSGCO, tuition and family gathering to do homework. SS! :( that woman IS nuts. SEQ + SBQ! and zuowen. and eng essay. and e/a math :( RAWR. And I thought 4D was supposed to be a slacko class.

6) Sunday- Totally no motivation!!! But thanks to ky, who cheered me up lots :D

PS: the modern cat, or mao = mau in egyptian times. So funny. Haha

Okay I'm leaving, bye!
BE HAPPY! :D

2010-02-05T04:53:00.000-08:00

Today I got darn pissed off.
Maybe I'm pre-menopausal.
But yeah, I was really annoyed and angry.

I just don't understand why SOME people can't shut up.
Zhaolaoshi was trying soo hard to speak.
And SOME people had to drown his voice.
And FYI I hate your voice.
Not like mine's any better, but at least I wasn't chatting so loud.
I don't like you and its not a secret.
I'm not afraid to let anyone know about it.
So there.
And I sincerely hope you can learn how to respect others.
Or you should just go burn in hell,
Since the society does not need people like you.
And the other Singaporeans, who have basic courtesy, will definitely shun you.

Today's not been a good day.

And Kaixuan disappeared today.
We were painting the animals for class deco in class,
then he kinda destroyed the paintings by accidentally splashing paint all around.
Gabriel go guailan him, then he emo-ed.
Scary.

Our whole class went shouting and they guys went to look for him.
Raf led us to shout " KAIXUAN SHOW US YOU'RE ALIVE!" at the 4th floor corridor.
So funny.

Haha. But eventually he was found la.
Which was, cool, I guess.
After emoing on the window there, he went home.

He was quite happy today.
But the paint made him sad.
Not that I care THAT much.

Guess I'll be a little MIA from now on.
Miss me much. NOT.

2010-01-30T06:00:00.000-08:00

Back, people :D
This week,

1) I had F&N
James actually logged on to Facebook in the lab! And he talked to Gabriel, who was logged on too >< so evil people. Nazreen, Azraei, Tongyien, James and me were just laughing and laughing and laughing till Mdm Ng was like, " Why are you all so ticklish today?" Haha. And James told me Ipad is the thing girls use when they have their period!!! Felt so cheated :(

2) 4D's joke
After sone boring lesson Jingyi decided to write on our classwhite board "Class Outing for 4D'10 : Meet today at T2, flight no. 733, wear your class tee!" Hahahaha its Shinee's arrival thing. Then like so funny. And Alvin added "buying class tees, class pants, class skirts and class caps! 10% subsidised by Mrs Lynn Goh" and "potluck, bring food on monday!" Den it was super super hilarous. Esp when Mrs Goh came in for the next lesson. Hehe.

3) I am very very pissed at someone.
But I'm not telling who. I'm sure alot of ppl are angry with that person tooo. Very very irresponsible and annoying. :(

4) Sorry Kaixuan.
I dunno why I apologised tooo. I'll stop shifting my table so far back. I really, really, really don't like guys. Really.

5) I don't wanna go to the BodyWorlds exhibition!
Its so unfair :( I'm not interested in looking at intestines and being cooped up in a room filled with dead bodies with intestines for 3 hours! It'll drive me crazy and I might even develop claustrophobia. Like Tongyien :S But still. Tuesday is gonna suck. I just know it is :(

6) What's Next After Olevels Talk
Was quite okay, the speakers are pretty clear. According to my mom, since we were busy sleeping and talking. Sat next to Yiyan and Aaaronchew. Then we kept playing and sms-ing hahaha :D and we kinda teased Nazreen and Ian also. Barbie and Ken. Hehe. So nice! :D

7) AHHHHHHHH
Wonder what's gonna happen next.

2010-01-25T06:32:00.000-08:00

Cool.
I can't believe I'm actually here.
We're supposed to hand in the first part of our coursework tmrw! :D
And I'm like halfway through. NOT.

Ahhhh.
Today's been a crazy day.
With a lot a lot of headaches.

Weinie had on her braces already.
It looks okay, but she says its pretty painful.
Get well sooon :D

Ziqin didn't come to school today because she was sick.
And get well soooon too!
Hope she sleeps enough at home.

Today there wasn't anything special.
Just that during HCL Ms Yulan told us one more person is dropping HCL
And I'm super afraid.
It's like, there're more and more people dropping,
More and more disappearing.........
I don't know if I should drop.
Because my chinese is really elementary.
And I only got an A2.
Mdm Yeo KK said its very yi2 han4.
So I dunno la.
Maybe I will consider..... Or maybe not.

Yeah that's all.
And sorry to Ziqin and James, for causing you all to seee the gory picture :(
So sorry!
I didn't know cuz I was multi tasking and reading line by line word by word.
But still, sincere apologies :((

Tomorrow's Tuesday.
Supposedly my favourite day.
But now its not.. cuz there's F&N!!! ;(
Which sucks lollipop.

Am currently looking forward to Wednesday,
when I can walk home with Jingwen after Co Sectionals
And exchange jokes.
Then I'll know everything'll be alright..

Till then, :)

2010-01-23T05:09:00.000-08:00

Hahaha.
It's been ages since I logged on to blog.
So so long.
Sorry for not blogging.

Just wanted to apologise to MdmGee.
Maybe I'm not as hardworking as you thought me to be.
And to MdmNg.
And to everyone else that cared.
Ha-ha-ha.

Whatever.

I don't know what to say now.
Why do I feel so, so empty?

And goodluck to Weinie, who's having her braces put on today.
Jiayou :)

I'll offer a sweet to anyone who gets my questions answered.
Haha .

2010-01-01T06:36:00.000-08:00

Ways to show ppl you are high

1) Laugh alot.
2) Keep having smileys
3) Use alot of exclaimation marks
4) Smile to everyone you meet on the street
5) Stay positive
6) Belive in miracles

Okay so I have a pact with dear friend Lionel now.
I must do this!!!!
Got forfeit de oh! :D

Tonjours

2009-12-31T21:20:00.000-08:00

今天是 2010 的第一天..
虽然是新的一年, 但我觉得自己还没做好准备.
2010 一定很可怕.

怎么办?

明年, 压力会很大吗?
明年, 还有机会放松吗?

我不要 :(
明年你还会是我的朋友吗?

2009-12-31T04:47:00.001-08:00

Okay that wasnt the last post.
Jielin said she only saw her name once...
So,

THANK YOU JIELIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

YOU ARE VERY VERY LAME

AND I SUPER LIKE IT

MUAHAHAHAHAHAHHA

YOU REMAIN MY DOG FOREVER

FOREVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

*evil laughters*

That should be enough :D

2009-12-31T04:27:00.000-08:00

This is the last post from 2009.
Tomorrow, 2009 will be just a memory.
I'll miss it, alot.
2009's the most fun filled year I ever had.

(^_^)
Was when Jielin comforted me,
Was when Rongher cheered me up,
Was when my friend laughed at my lame jokes,
Was when my clique and I had fun together,
Was when Cora, Kaiying, James, Yiyan, Yiqing and other sunshines joked with me,
Was when Jingwen Jiamin and CO was at their best.

:(
Was when I failed as a friend,
Was when I cannot cook in F&N,
Was when I didn't play my sheng well,
Was when Alesha-Joy left us,
Was when people got disappointed in me.

>:(
Was when Alesha-Joy left us,
Was when I couldn't get my pieces right,
Was when __________________ pissed the hell outta me,
Was when E left.

= =
Was when I was sleepy
Was when I was lame
Was when disappointment set in.

Summary of all the emotions :D

And thank you all people,
For laughing, smiling and crying with me in 2009.
I'm glad I got into 3D, and I'm happy I got in CO, and I feel lucky to be in CCHY.
2009 is the funnest year ever!
But I'm sure 2010 will be as fun, won't it? ;)

HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL!

In this coming year, I really really HOPE
1, I can continue taking Amaths
2, I won't be afraid of raw seafood or poultry anymore
3, Local blogger Sibehsian will update his blog
4, Everyone'll be happy :D

Cheers to all for the new year ahead! :D

Whatever : )

2009-12-30T05:19:00.000-08:00

Hello! :D

Today morning had to pass something to Tongyien :(
He very UNGENTLEMAN loh, make me go Bishan.
Guy should come right!!!!!!!!
Somemore he still late.
And I was late le.

(YIQING!!!!!)
But anyway, I was very very happy today cuz on the train,
I was sandwiched between SHUAIGES !!!!!!!!
Many of them, in fact! ^_^
Then best thing was, the train was so damn crowded.
So whenever the train jerked, I will get to 'accidentally' bump into shuaiges on my left and right.
I tell you, the feeling is damn damn damn SHIOK :D
Their shirts very very soft, like 100% cotton liddat.
And some of them were talking about quitting smoking, so I eavesdropped :D
Hehe.

When I got home my cousin was here.
As in the small small one.
So I taught her to play Mario Kart.
Cuz she very young and her fingers dont coordinate well, she kept losing.
Then she will show me the WTF!?!?!?! face.
Damn entertaining sia.
Hehe.

Today Damn fun :D

2009-12-29T03:35:00.001-08:00

Had lots and lotsa fun today! :D

First of all Jielin came to my house again.
So yeah, had some little 'incidents'.

#1 - Washing dishes after lunch.
This is sucha tough job. I washed the plates, but then she insisted I shouldn't leave the water running while soaping. So she took over. Then hahahahahha, we washed damn lots of times. So wet wet lolz.

#2 - Ice
After pouring the coke into cups we decided we wanted ice. So I (yes, yes, me!!!!) went to get ice from the freezer. This time I know how to tweeze the machine thingy to get ice liao! :D But when I pour water inside the mould to make somemore ice, hahaha, the water all spilled out and kinda flooded the kitchen floor. LOL.

#3 - I got cheated :(
She reading book, then I doing schoolwork. She said she'd be ready when I was ready. But everytime she ask me wait for her de :( To quote," Aiyah, 6 questions left only! Faster do!" Liddat loh. Just liddat, I finished the whole thing while waiting for her to finish reading :(((( So I felt damn cheated la. But overall had fun.

Went to the playground again after that.
Fav hangout place :D
Talked about Edward.. And other stuff.
Yeah.

Was happy today.
As in, real smile happy :D
Must stay happy tomorrow, and tomorrow and tomorrow! :D

2009-12-28T05:21:00.000-08:00

Yesterday, 27dec :D

Thankyou (according to time)
SHIQIN, Jesmond, Rongher, Junyu, Juanning, Jacky, Billy, Jingwen, JasmineKong, Yuenyee, Yiyan, Cora, Miaosi, Weinie, Cheuktow, Xiankai, James, Yankei, Xinhui, Brian, Kuangit, Tongyien, Yizhen :D

Got the bestest surprise ever when Ms Chong Shiqin actually msg-ed me. Almost died of shock. And of course, ectasy :D

Second was Cheuktow, who was in Australia (OMG see the $!) and Weinie, currently in Malaysia.

And of course, Xinhui, whom I havent spoken to since like, primary four and also Kuangit, my very evil senior who teased me without mercy almost everyday last year. Just because I was half awake while walking to the MRT station :(

Thank you and many many many many many hugs to all those who remembered. Really. And those who actually stayed till 0000 - Shiqin; Jesmond, Rongher; Junyu; Juanning; Jacky; Billy; Jingwen; Jasmine; Yuenyee; Yiyan; Cora.. Thankyouthankyou :DDDDDDDDDD

------- xxxx

Today ; 28dec
Went over to Kaiying's house just now to do the SS project.
But dropped by CCHY to get all the books required for next year.
Kailin and I saw Bryan buying books.
He was supposed to come out looking like an auntie with two plastic bags full of books..
But he didn't!!!!!!!!!!! D:
Disappointment.

Kaiying has a rabbit that vibrates every time we touch it.
A real rabbit, with its bunny intestines and what not.
Perfect.
I think I don't wanna pet cat anymore, I want a rabbit.
:D Heh.

Group members Yiyan Lina (I spelled your name with small cases!) Kaiying and me.
We fooled around at her house, skimming thru a little terrorist webpages.
But mostly checking out Korean stuff :D
Lina dressed very prettily.
And Kaiying showed us stuff, like...... :D
Yiyan was very nice and offered to help set the 'table' when we ate lunch.
Me, basically trying to make the rabbit vibrate even more :D
I think the rabbit hates me though D:

Tomorrow Jielin's gonna be at my house again.
And chances are, we'll go to the playground for swings again! :D
Love my life.
Scared of next year :(

Rongher's away at her chalet.
Miss her! :(

2009-12-24T02:46:00.000-08:00

ITS CHRISTMAS EVE!
Jingle Bells, Jingle Bells, Jingle All the Waaaaaaay ( ;

Read from this storybook that RED and GREEN are the IN Christmas colors..
For as long as Santa Claus is here xD

Yay, festive season.
Love festive seasons.

For the people with Christmas Trees at home,
Don't eat up the Christmas Tree!
Or the mistletoe ;D
Okay I'm lame.
Became this high after watching Looney Tunes.
Watched the damn cute bird hammer the dumb cat for very long.

On a more depressing note,
My cute/un-cute brother got hurt yesterday when he went out for basketball.
According to him there was this middleaged guy who aimed the ball at him.
Heng his THERE didn't get hurt,
But his shin did and now we're keeping our fingers crossed cuz it hurts like @#$%&*
Dad is bringing him for an Xray now.
Hope he's okay.
And curse that stupid idiot!
I hope he gets hurt too for hurting my brother!!!!
He also hit my sister with that damn ball anyway.
On the nose.
When asked why they didn't run away when they saw the ball flying at them,
They explained that they were playing with another ball.
And the COWARD who hit them had the GUTS to RUN AWAY.
So, curse him curse him curse him.
Hope he breaks a leg.

I know I'm evil.
But hurt my brother and sister?
I'm so gonna curse you to hell.

When your feet touch the sky,...

2009-12-22T05:55:00.001-08:00

我们是谁?
我们是中正中学义顺华乐团!

Hahaha, blogging about the concert today
No photos though, maybe another day.

I just want to say, CCHYCO, ---------
Okay. I dunno how to phrase it.
But I believe we rock.
Though we were like so damn noisy in the backstage
And nobody shut up when I shhhhhhh-ed (I talked too ;D) for the 100000th time,
We still rock.
And that was a great performance!
Oh, and not forgetting Jiamin :D and Dearest Jingwen,
Who shook hands/hugged/pep-talked/lamed/got nervous w me! :D

Festival Drums group!
You all rock too.
Damn shuai ah :D

And:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JESMOND!
Stay tall!

xxx

Yesterday I was very sad loh
Haha, and today too, after the announcement of PSLE results.
I really DONT KNOW what to do because I'm not divine,
So please stop asking me!!!!!!!!!!!

At least Jielin came to my house today
Cuz her parents went to Europe.
So we fooled around, did some homework, and went out to the playground to play.
Years since I goofed around there.
Even felt taller :D

But the best thing was,
When I sat on the swing, I felt alot happier than I ever did in a long, long time.
Love swings :D

2009-12-17T05:24:00.000-08:00

Hmmm, read Jielin's post and got emo.
But I'm not linking her, not ever.
Cuz she's my friend and I dun wanna share her =x
Yeah I'm super possessive when it comes to friends.

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Haiz.
Frankly I really still can't believe E's gone.
But I guess even the most perfect of human beings have to eventually succumb to fate,
And that the most blissful times fade,
Leaving behind the collage of memories to cuddle to ignite hope.

I never got to knew him in person.
Before him I always believed in miracles happening.
I still do now.
His existence was a miracle, but his passing was more like a scene out of a tragic drama.
Maybe he isn't here anymore,
But one thing's for sure,
He still lives in our hearts.

A toast to the joy he brought, to the smiles he coaxed, to the love that'll never end..

2009-12-17T05:08:00.000-08:00

MY 237th post,
Jielin's 327th :D

I'm back from the CO camp!
It was waaaaay boring.
Except that part we got to practise with FD.
Hahah.

In this camp, I
a) Practised my yaozu and other songs quite alot
b) So my diaphragm got really sore
c) Didn't slack THAT much
d) Influenced my super juniors to love cats, tweety bird and dumbdumb
e) Feel that I have chemistry with Jingwen
f) Cuz we kept giggling throughout practice at the same things
g) Think Jiamin is super chio when she blushes
h) Saw 1111
i) Had cold showers cuz there wasnt hot water
j) Didn't accomplish mission to take picture in the Gents
k) Thought of SQ when I saw certain things
l) Missed mom dad bro grandma but not sister.

Its really a pretty boring camp.
Just shower, eat, sleep, CO, shower, eat, sleep, CO, and so on.

Three more days till the concert.
Three cheers too, to the Festive Drums and the Chinese Orchestra!
May the concert be a total success :D

Dedicated to Jingwen and Jiamin:
DUMBDUMB GIMME GUMGUM ^_^

2009-12-12T07:57:00.000-08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY SISTER, JUINTING!

2009-12-11T04:42:00.000-08:00

Okay this is a quiz I kouped from James.
Feel free to do this! :D
Its pretty long.

Q1 missing

2. If you married the last person you texted, what would your last name be?
Sim =x And I'd also be a lesbian :D

3. Were you happy when you woke up today?
Yeah :D Anticipating CO ==

4. When were you on the phone last? And with who?
Weiyi called to play a trick I think.

5. What is the last thing someone bought you?
Jiamin, bubbletea!

6.What’s something that can always make you feel better?
Lame jokes, the lamer the better.

7. What are you excited for?
Tomorrow, and the concert.

8. What were you doing yesterday?
Sleeping half the day, tuition, sleep :D That's right, I have a life.

9. Honestly, who was the last person to tell you they love you?
Errrr... You said something? (Haha, koup reply also)

10. What's the last thing you put in your mouth?
The straw of the bubbletea. Its yellow!

11. Have a best friend?
Yeah, Jielin :D

12. Are you scared to fall in love?
Eh, kinda.

13. Do you think teenagers can be in love?
Personal viewpoint? Yeah. And experience heartbreak after.

14. Last person you wanted to punch in the face?
Erm.. Erm.. Erm.. Erm.. That person loh.

15. What time is it right this second?
20:48

16. What do you want right now?
Cut off my nose. Its running ;O

17. Who was the last person you took a picture with?
Brandon :DDDDD

18. Are you single/taken/heartbroken/or confused?
Neither. I'm Juinying :D

19. When was the last time you cried?
Erm..

20.Father or mother?
Father and mother is one :D I choose Father and Mother.

21. Do you find it hard to trust others?
Yes.

22. How fast does your mind change?
When I feel the initial choice I made isn't right.

23. I bet you miss somebody right now.
You lose, you gimme $1000000000; I lose, you gimme $100000000 :D

24. Can you honestly say you're okay right now?
Don't remind me.

25. Why do you think so many people cheat?
For the thrill of winning.

26. Tell me what's on your mind.
Mmmm, potatoes are delicious.

27. What are you looking forward to in the next three months?
December Holidays.

28. Have you ever worn the opposite sex's clothing?
Yeah, cousin's.

29. When did you last talk to your number 1 top friend?
Yesterday night.

30. When is your next road trip?
Eh. Seldom take road trips. Unless you count the bus or MRT?

31. Do you have someone of the opposite sex you can tell anything to?
Jielin. She's a female and I am male :D

32. How's your heart?
Oh, its too busy beating right now to respond.

33. Have you ever felt like you weren't important?
Like, in the Ladies'. Nah just kidding.

34. Do you think somebody's in love with you?
Mom, Dad, Bro, Sis, Grandma, etc...

35. What are you planning on doing after this?
Complete tomorrow's tuition work :D

36. When will your next kiss take place?
Tomorrow. I have to French with my ZhongYinSheng during practice..

37. Have you told anybody you loved them today?
I love you! (That's one)

38. Who do you not get along with?
Refer to James's answer =x

39. What does your 3rd recent text say?
Okay. What will happen after ________.. Will we ____________ Very long.

40. What are you wearing right now?
A hairband :D No la, trying to be funny. Lousy attempt though. Haha.

41.Are you wasting your time on the person you like?
Never :D The only time we waste is the time spent thinking we're alone :D

42. When's the last time you had a grilled cheese?
I forgot. I think with Clique Smirkies.

43. What's your favorite boy and girl name right now?
Brandon, and Ariel ( from the little mermaid - I think she's awfully brave ) :D

44. How did you feel when you woke up?
"Later have CO?"

45. Do you wish someone would call or text you right now?
No, :D

46. Do you crack your knuckles and back?
Nope. I pinch myself.

47. What were you doing yesterday at midnight?
Texting.

48. What are your LEGAL initials?
CJY :D

49. Who's the first B in your contacts?
Baohui. Cousin :D

50. When was the last time you laughed really hard?
Yesterday, at Rongher's DKNY joke.

51. Your number 1 top friend walks out of your life, do you go after them?
I will cry first. LOL

52. Last awkward moment?
Today. When I had to tell JH I don't share bubbletea. LOL

53. Are you afraid of the dark?
YA! Very.

54. Do you have good vision?
Nah. I can mistake a rabbit for a cat. Haha

55. Have you ever tripped someone?
Are you asking me about one of my hobbies? ;)

56. Have you ever slapped someone?
No. What does it feel like?

57. Are you Irish?
Nah, I'm chinese :D

58. Do you use chop sticks?
The wrong way lo.

59. Do you have any scars?
Yeah. I was a fan of playing catching in primary school.

60. Is there someone you will never forgive?
Ask me this question again when I'm angry.

61.Do you laugh off embarrassing moments?
No. I emo. LOL

62. Name the last person to text you?
Huh. Now ah. My friend :D

63. Would you marry someone 8 years older than you?
No!!!!!!!!!!!

64. Can you go in public looking like you do?
Yeah, of course!

65. What side of the bed do you sleep on?
Mostly on the left.

66. Is it easy for someone to make you smile?
Easy to make me smile, but not easy to make me smile when I'm sad :D

67. What's the first thing you'll do on your wedding day?
Hope my future husband will be shuai :D

68. Do you fall for people easily?
You're asking me? ;)

69. Has anyone put their arms around you in the past 5 days?
Yeah.

70.Do u miss the way things used to be?
Often.

71. How often do you hold back from saying what you are thinking?
Everytime.

72. Song you're thinking of right now?
Yao Zu Wu Qu. Haha, CO makes me crazy.

73. Want someone back in your life?
Godgrandma, grandma, grandpa, aunt, E____ back in JL's life..

74. Will tomorrow be better than today?
Yes, that's my belief :D

75. What’s the color of you’re shirt you are wearing?
Yellow.

76. Has anyone ever sang or played music for you personally?
Gouyue.

77. Does it bother you when someone lies to you?
Yeah. I believe in having the truth no matter how ugly it'll be. But I never practise my beliefs.

78. Is there anyone who understands your relationship status?
Not really.

79. Are you a naturally happy person? Or is your happiness forced?
Yeah I'm happy.

80. Is there anyone you wish would fall in love with you?
No :D I'm happy this way.

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I promised to dedicate something..
E,
Although you've migrated to heaven, there are still people who miss you.
You might just be a passing cloud, but you're the most perfect cloud there ever was.
I'm sure she is glad to have known you.
We'll always remember you, no matter where you are, no matter how long you're gone.
RH said, some people stay longer in your life, some in your heart.
I guess you're the latter.
I hope you're happy with the angels up there,
But don't forget, you're her guardian angel.
:D

2009-12-09T04:37:00.000-08:00

TODAY CHEUKTOW MADE MY DAY!
SHE SAID I GREW TALLER!
YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY!

TALL,
TALLER,
TALLER,
TALLER! :D

And I guailan-ed Jiaqing today.
I feel so accomplished.
Yes!
He says I will die on Friday
But I don't care.
Cuz I can use his dizi to really guaiLAN him.
I hope you read this.

2009-12-08T06:57:00.000-08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO WEINIE JASMINE JIAQING!

To Weinie :
Meow-meow meow meow meow meow,
Meow-meow meow meow meow meow,
Meow-meow meow meow meow meow-ow,
Meow-meow meow meow meow meow! :D

To Jasmine and Jiaqing,
Happy birthday to you,
Happy birthday to you,
Happy birthday to you,
Happy birthday to you! :D

Grow taller!
And may ALLLL your dreams come true.

spiacente

2009-12-08T06:40:00.000-08:00

I've got stuff to say, but I can't say it out.
So I'm writing everything in another language.
With credits from Google.

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Mi ricordo ancora la sera mi hai chiamato per scusarsi.
Hai davvero che non avevo sentimenti, non symphathy?
So che era reale e davvero non c'era bisogno di scusarsi.
Non ha torto. Ero.

Non devi mentire a rendermi felice.
E il tempo i due di voi "litigato"?
Non si dovrebbe mai lasciare nulla venire tra voi due.
Sei anni. E distrutto in pochi minuti?
Io non so perché non hanno ascoltato il vostro comando.
Ma per quanto ne so, ho fatto bene.

Mi dispiace davvero. Io proprio non riesco ad accettare la differenza d'età.
Ma vi prometto, se ci si dimentica di me troverai qualcuno migliore.
Mi fa male quando so che stai aspettando le risposte che non avevo mai trasmettere,
e le chiamate che non avevo mai linea.
Possono le stelle nel cielo trasmettere le mie scuse più sincere a voi.
Tutto il meglio di voi nel vostro futuro.

Non dimenticate che era presente .... amico.

Spiacente.

2009-12-05T20:30:00.001-08:00

Guess what?
Brandon called yesterday, and today!!! :D

Yesterday's
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Mom : Hello?
Brandon (in the super cute elmo-ish voice) : Ya?
Mom : Are you Brandon?
Brandon : Ya?
Brandon : Where's the super mario boy? (refering to brother) I want to find him!
Mom : That boy is Jingjie.

LOL.

Today's
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Brother : Hello?
Brandon : HI FRIEND! :D

HI FRIEND is our greeting aka what we say to each other first thing in th morn everyday.
I sincerely hope he calls tomorrow as well.
Then I can sneakily overhear their conversation and his super duper cute voice....
On another extension :D
Three cheers!

And I regret not following Fiona's advice to slatter on OLAY SPF15 D:
Skin all like peel off le.
Not to the extent where its disfigured la.

I have nothing to say to THAT PERSON today.
Because today's a Sunday and you're supposed to be happy during Sundays.
Ok lame.

But there's something I really must say..
I dunno if you all will ever see it, and if you do, ... I don't know la.
This is really from the bottom of my heart.

SORRY.
I don't have a choice.
Its the best way out for all of us.
Trust me on that please.
SORRY.

To J and B.

2009-12-04T03:14:00.000-08:00

Hello people, I'm back! :D
A million thanks to my dear sister, who loaned me her phone and USB cable :D
So that means I have pictures now!
Sadly only a few, cos I'm a lazy person x.x

Yeah so, picture time :D
*kacha*

Sorry its a farm in here, :D

Quack ;D
This quack posed for my camera!

Flying squirrel. Squeak :D

Meh~

Went to Taiwan with a tour group.
And Eva was in it :D

Our whole group had three cute little boys.
One's Brandon, who's five; then (forgot name) who's five; and my brother, who's okay only =x
Brandon's like so the cutest!
I am currently obsessed with 5 year olds, particularly of the male species :D
Wheeeeee.

My brother. Not cute already right D:

Brother, Brandon, Boy :D

Brother and me.

Boy, Brother, Brandon.

Brandon and me!!!!! :D

He's like so damn cute!

When I requested for a photo taking w him,

He put his arm around me and posed! :D

But my apologies for that very very very weird and retarded smile.

His hair seriously tickles x.x

Train up to see the Wulai waterfall.

To end this post, :D

Specially dedicated to THAT PERSON:
So you think you can read minds?
Well, try reading mine.

2009-11-25T06:33:00.001-08:00

credits to our dear Rongher, ;D

Hahaa, today there was sectionals.

Kinda didn't enjoy myself today.

Hello, try spending your 0830 - 1300 in the freezing CO room practising.

And KAO, teacher kept asking us to practise D:

Sia la.

After that went for lunch w Huanwen and Jiamin and Junsian and Sunchang and Z&A

Sunchang escaped after he 'tricked' Huanwen into giving him permission

To deliver lunch for his darl! :D

Evil.

Then Junsian and Huanwen kept talking, talking, talking, talking :D

And Jiamin and I kept eating, eating, eating, eating.

In the end Huanwen still waste food!

Gotcha, :D

In the end, went home.

End of story.

Wait wait don't go first! ~

Specially Dedicated to THAT PERSON:

You go eat shit la you.

(Excuse me)

2009-11-24T06:01:00.000-08:00

HAIZ,
HAIZ,
HAIZ,
HAIZ,
HAIZ.

I AM GOING OVERSEAS AND I'M NOT VACCINATED.
SIA LA.

2009-11-23T03:04:00.000-08:00

HELLO!
So long never post le.

CO camp (17th - 20th)
PRE-CAMP :D
Was quite fun, a day of meetings and plannings and carrying out games!
Zi-lianed with Rongher in the Ladies' first thing in the morning.
The photo turned out cute, cuz we acted cute :D wheeeeeeeeee.
Remember having the feeling that i'd so love this camp.

1ST DAY
Was damn afraid cos Primary school kids would be coming.
Huanwen and I are the Facilitators of Group3.
Grp3 turned out to be really okay and quite fun.
Played games like whacko and the bottle one.
Yelled alot.
And yes, I fell and injured myself.
So Huanwen had to solo. sorry ><
We went for dinner at Eighteen Chefs, I dont like D:
Sorry.
Missed warm bath water and my nice bed.

2ND DAY
Was like a panda cuz i couldnt sleep last night.
But still, got sectionals and I met my very very cute juniors :
Zhongyinsheng (huanwen's) - Ivan, Daniel, Samuel
GaoYinsheng (mine!) - Jacky, Billy, Kenner, YanFeng
So in conclusion, i got 7 guys! for sheng!

These three days, really must thank Huanwen.
If not for her, no one help me teach Zhongyinsheng/Gaoyinsheng le.
She really helped me alot.
Somemore the Zhongyinsheng guys are so hyper.
I know they seriously tested/stretched her patience to the max but she didn't lose her temper.
Unlike me, I yelled at them after the first few minutes of teaching.
The gaoyinshengs were quite self disciplined, and Huanwen helped to teach too.

Group3, Huanwen and me facils.
She yelled alot and brought fun and maintained order.
Also when zhongyinsheng person Samuel cried bcos he injured his finger and refused to join us,
Huanwen specially stayed with him and comforted him and persuaded him.
Can marry Huanwen next time! :D

3RD DAY
Day of concert.
the video was damn touching, and we all took alot of photos.
Will miss all my people.
Emo-ed for a very long time after that.
Immediately chionged to family chalet.
And stayed there till today D:
Quite fun.
Fly kite and sleep.
Haha.

I dunno what's wrong with me these days loh
I feel that everything feels a darker shade of gray, a notch emptier.
And through alot of things, I've learnt not to trust most people.
Everyone, in fact.
They say I'm sad, but I really don't know who the problem lies with.
Is it only me, or is it everybody?
Bcos the only word I know is : I dunno.

2009-11-15T02:46:00.000-08:00

HEY! :D

Friday
Had CO, fooled around towards the end.
I played faithfully, every single song :D
Cos Jiamin was recovering and couldn't sub me :P
Yeah, and I pretended to be a cello by burrowing inside cello cases and trying to sleep there.
Cuz COroom's quite cold and I was tired (from watching the 11pm show the night before)
And Ziqin pretended to be a chair by hugging a chair (lol :D)
Yupps, and went home with Weinie and Yuenyee and Gouyue.

Saturday
Saturday's yesterday (double lol :D)
I went to tuition at Ms Ho's house.
ENGLISH! :D
She still looks as pretty as about ever, but she gave me alot of homework D:
After that Dad brought me to a tour group thingy we will be having when we go to Taiwan.
Guess who I saw!!!!!
The very very very cute Eva! :D
Hope we're in the same group.
Nice : first time trying the tour thing out and I see a nicenice friend :D

Sunday (Today)
I woke up very late, at like 10+ Heh ^_^
Then I went to shower and I went out.
And once I got out from the lift, I got this total shock.
Three Malay guys (like again!!!!!!) hollered "HI!"
Then they started laughing like a bunch of hyenas.
I took off =x Damn scared.

Met Weinie,
We went to Orchard to ____________ (shhh! :D)
Quite fun la (:DDDD) Hahaz.
We went to meet up with Syl and Yuenyee halfway.
Actually we four meeting tgt de, but Syl sudd wanna sleep so change time
Then my CURFEW at 5!!!! D:
Believe it. I got a freaking CURFEW!
CURFEW!!!!!
Just because of the incident the other day.
Crap la.

Yeah and I went home and I'm now using the computer.
Updated :D

I decided I like sheeps more than cows.
I prodded this toy sheep's stomach and it said "Meeeeeeh!"
:D

2009-11-10T04:35:00.000-08:00

Here to take a break from SS D:

Today I got followed again.
This time by three malay guys, in their twenties.
Totally sucks loh.
I was just using my phone what.
What's their problem! D:

I sat on the playground slide thing there for so long,
till I saw my neighbour's maid and I went up with her.
Same old ritual, we press 18th floor (anyhow) the guys pressed 16th.
Fuck them la.
Follow what follow.
Embarrass their mothers.

In the end I filed a police report.
Seee next time still dare follow me anot.

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today went out with Jielin.
We just walked around and took alot of pictures.
Which she might be posting, but I.... might?
See first loh.

I dont know why,
but i'm so pissed off at the three guys.
Here free speech, can scold scold scold.
Lolz.
Second time in two years le leh.
Wakao. Enough anot?!

2009-10-30T05:57:00.000-07:00

I feel that I'm very attitude.
Yes. Believe your eyes x_x

1) CO
I harbour the intention to pon every publicity talk next week!
Bcos they're screwing my whole Extended Programme thingy.
And my mom says lately I've been putting so much in CO I don't even study :'(
I know its the problem w my time management, but hey, that's who I am.
I can't manage my own time cos I FAIL ma.

Today I slept behind my sheng (and also chatted w Jiamin and Jiaqing)
That's why I messed up.
But I did teach Jingwen.
Today I didn't work hard.
I see the Dayang Sampan there so sian, then I didn't blow at all.
D: I know. I'm hopeless.

2) Sad D:
Mdm Nora's leaving.
I don't want her to go.
Besides Mrs Lynn Goh, she's like the only teacher who genuinely put in everything she had to manage our class.
I know many people despise 3D.
Yes, we are that hopeless.
So what?
We have the best form teacher imaginable.
Despite the constant racket and squabbles, she thought 3D her best class.
She said we wouldnt be missing her cos she always yells, but that isn't a bit true.
She yells to encourage us, to "put your best in everything! I don't want to see anyone of you in 3D next year."
And reminded us how "This is the final lap. You either make it, or you break it."
Maybe she had no idea how much of a treasure she was.
But she was really someone who truly cared, who bothered to push us on when we want to give up.

I remember, there was a time when kaixuan couldn't fit in our class.
He had no cliques, no friends, people never invited him in their groups during grpwork.
Mdm Nora asked him to go for a walk, and then pleaded w our class to accept him.
We did.
One.

When YunMin couldn't bring herself to go on anymore.
The tongue-lashings, the forcing, the house visits.
And after, how she squeezed her into next year's 3D.
Two.

When we got our CT2 Results.
Hurt. Encouragement. Hope. Belief.
Many.

I know she's leaving, that's for sure, and its an unchangable fact.
But I just want to say, THANK YOU, MDM NORA, for everything.
Every student you've managed to save, every soul you fished out of the depths of hopelessness.
Thank you so much for spurring us on.
And may you stay pretty, pretty, pretty.

3) I'm definitely skipping PSGCO tmrw. FOR SURE.

I'm tired.
Goodbye.

2009-10-27T05:34:00.003-07:00

Felt like blogging today :D

MONDAY
Had publicity in the morn,
And lunch at Eighteen Chefs along with 3DE in the afternoon.
Publicity was kinda fun, esp AIPS had those super nice chairs! :D
Weinie, Yuenyee and Juanning's primary school :D
So rock sia.

So after that Huanwen Grace Juanning Jiaqing Aaron Qiwei and me
were dropped off the Northpoint and we walked to Eighteen Chefs.
It was a totally gross experience, LOL.
Only for those who sat at table 9 :D

Grace, Jiaqing, Aaron and me sat tgt.
And when I was talking to huanwen,
Jiaqing switched my drink with his.
And i didnt know.
So i took a sip.. and ... you know la DDDDDDDD:
And then Aaron switched Jiaqing's and mine around w his.
And so on.............

The fun started.
We keep switching drinks and straws.
And tasted.. different flavours.
Till Aaron noticed our drink levels werent the same.
So guess what we did?
Yups.
We "remeasured" the drinks to achieve equal levelled drinks :D
Which means, we mixed the drinks.
Ew D:

But I got to tell my crocodile joke :D
And Jiaqing his very funny but lame airplane joke :D
Anw, the ans is : the crocodiles are HALAL hahahaha :D
Okay not funny.

TUESDAY
Today we played Captain's Ball.
Which was really really fun.
First we kept winning.
But then yeepeng and xinru got transferred.
So it became harder D:

After recess, movie screening.
Damn nice.
:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D

After school, LT with Mroh! :D
He shuai sia.
But sometimes talk too much.
I got quite restless.

Then CO.
Was sleeping/fooling around/talking to Jiamin behind my sheng :D
My sheng ideal boyfriend sia.
Shield me from any evil glances I got for playing wrongly :D
Lols.
Jiaqing power! Hahahs.

Liddat loh.
Bye. :D hahas.

2009-10-26T04:43:00.000-07:00

HEY!
Hahas!

I've gotta new motto : JUST SAY MOOO!
Which is cute.
And now Weinie's not a cat, she's a cow :D
Named Milkshake :D
Before that she was Charcoal/Chocolate
Lols.

This is a lame post.
Just to show Gouyue (aka Clover) that I'm not dead yet.
And that I'll continue singing that OCBC song until I get it right
Muahahahha :D
Wait for me!
And I will also learn the A-go-gou dance even if you don't teach me! :D

New joke!
There's a river, home to many crocodiles. The crocs are fierce and they bite humans and animals who wanna cross th river. But one day a pig wades into the river, but it isn't bitten. Why? :D
Answers next post! :D

MOO,
S C A R L E T T E C;

2009-10-18T06:08:00.000-07:00

My Love lyrics
Songwriters: Elofsson, Jorgen Kjell; Nylen, Per; Kreuger, David Bengt; Magnusson, Per;
Band: Westlife

An empty street
An empty house
A hole inside my heart
I'm all alone, the rooms are getting smaller.

I wonder how
I wonder why
I wonder where they are
The days we had
The songs we sang together
Oh yeah

And oh my love
I'm holding on forever
Reaching for a love that seems so far

So I say a little prayer
And hope my dreams will take me there
Where the skies are blue to see you once again
My love

Overseas from coast to coast
To find the place I love the most
Where the fields are green to see you once again
My love

I try to read
I go to work
I'm laughing with my friends
But I can't stop to keep myself
From thinking
Oh no

I wonder how
I wonder why
I wonder where they are
The days we had, the songs we sang together
Oh yeah

And oh my love
I'm holding on forever
Reaching for the love that seems so far

So I say a little prayer
And hope my dreams will take me there
Where the skies are blue to see you once again
My love

Overseas from coast to coast
To find the place I love the most
Where the fields are green to see you once again

To hold you in my arms
To promise you my love
To tell you from my heart
You're all I'm thinking of

Reaching for the love that seems so far

So I say a little prayer
And hope my dreams will take me there
Where the skies are blue to see you once again
My love

Overseas from coast to coast
To find the place I love the most
Where the fields are green to see you once again
My love

Say a little prayer
Dreams will take me there
Where the skies are blue to see you once again

Overseas from coast to coast
To find the place I love the most
Where the fields are green to see you once again
My love

credits to elyrics.net :D

Dear cousin Zhengyuan and Juinying want to dedicate this song to
Grandma, Grandpa and ThirdAunt.
We hope that when the skies are blue and the fields are green,
We can get the chance to see you all once again.
But in the meantime, we'll be reaching for the love that seems so far, :D
Love you all, forever and always :D

can the dead hear us?

2009-10-17T00:24:00.000-07:00

SanYi,
生日快乐 ..
hope you're happy there.
miss you.

2009-10-16T22:22:00.000-07:00

YO!
Hahahaha ;D

Ytd never go school for first half of the day.
Cuz some organ inside my body freaking hurts.
then i thought i kena appendix.
But in the end, turned out to be muscle ache.
Because I rested my sheng there while carrying it,
Squashing my intestines (?)
LOGICAL right ? ;D

And today i watched Night At The Museum with my sis.
She rocks man.
That show is very very very funny.
I decided I like T-rex, heh.

Yuenyee says the SMIRKIES can go out tmrw.
OMG holidays so rock sia.
I can't wait :D
I want go watch Haeundae or whatever.
the sad tsunami show!
Kaiying said was real nice. And I know ____ cried! :D hah

Anw, on the last note....
MILK IS GOOD FOR HEALTH, MOOOOO! :D
heh heh.

2009-10-15T06:08:00.000-07:00

PURR-fect ;D
I haven't finished my History essay.
And my chinese essay.
I am so GOODGAME :D

Haeundae is a nice nice nice show.
Well its looks really really nice (people die!)

Today wasn't nice.
I woke up at like 530am (very reluctantly)
And went for CO.

Let's just say CO wasn't exactly a good picture today.

Then after that.
I went home!
Like a good girl.

Then...........
I ate, bathed, read, and realised i left my history undone!!!!!!!!!!!
I seriously wish the very shuai mr tan was my brother or smth.
D:

2009-10-14T07:22:00.000-07:00

WHEEEEEEEEE I'M BACK!

Apparently I got so motivated by cora, weinie and aaronchew's tags.
So I decided to blog since I'm already here.

I've got nothing much to say about today cuz today totally sucks..

But, there's something really nice that happened 16years ago on this day.

The day CORA was born :D

Uh-huh, my cute cute sunflower-clicker!

Because I have no pictures of her...

TA-DA!!!!!!!!!!

It's supposed to be a sunflower.

If you can't see.

But hey, I tried!

SWEET SIXTEENTH, DEAREST CORA!

STAY CHEERY AND BUBBLY AND CUTE AND HORNY AND PRETTY AND A CORA :D

Love and love and love,

Juinying :D

TUESDAY

Went out with Clique.

Anticipation! :D for like so many many days.

Clique = Weinie Gouyue Yuenyee Ziqin + Desiree + Juanning :D

Soooooo happy that day.

We went to Cine Leisure.

Actually wanted to watch some show about some Tsunami that seperated lovers (yes!)

But ended up in Pastamania instead.

Which is KINDA fun :S

What can I say though?

MY CLIQUE TOTALLY ROCKS! :D

love my life sia ;DDDDDD

Okay, going offf.

tomorrow, 7am, chinese orchestra practice, school.

2009-10-10T05:05:00.000-07:00

Haha, back for a little while.
My blog is dead!
But nevermind :D

THURSDAY
Thursday was cool.
Especially during HCL.
Teacher was going thru really boring stuff.
So Kaiying and me started singing.
And we thought no one could hear.
We even sang damn lame songs like the OCBC song, McDonalds, and usual songs.
Until the teacher yelled, " 很烦 eh 你们两个 !"
Wa so paiseh!!!!!!!!!!! T.T

FRIDAY
I forgot what happened la.
Ohya. SS and HCL.
Was okay loh.

MONDAY
TUESDAY
WEDNESDAY
Smirkies decided to go for some adventure camp after exams.
Will be damn funnnnn!
Plus Desiree will be going with us.
Flying fox ~~~~~~~
Ahhhhh soooooo looking forward to it ^_^
And Yuenyee said maybe we could all go swimming.
But I still prefer the EastCoast ride bike thing.
Cuz i want to learn how to ride! hahahahaha!

THURSDAY
FRIDAY
SATURDAY
Went for Chinese tuition just now.
There's a very very funny joker in our class.
His ideas alll so cute one la!
Then went for piano.
Teacher today wear so nice.
Cuz she going out for a date.
Haha!
Learnt the stupid sonatina (okay not really).

anw, GOODLUCK ALL FOR THE LAST TWO PAPERS!
only two more to go, we can do it :DDDDDDDDDDDDD
And after that, I shall keep going to changi airport :D
wheeeeee!~

2009-09-27T02:51:00.001-07:00

Shall not beat around the bush.
This is for Ms CSQ,
the past, the present and forever Alesha-Joy.
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Browsed around in Plurk just now.
Saw most things.
I'm sorry.
I wish you can come back.
I don't know what made you go.
She isn't that bad.
She's our friend.
We're to accept her, no matter who she is.
SMIRKIES was our choice.
Inlcuding yours.
Forgot the happy times we had together?
The Wildwildwet, the messy baking sessions, the long hours of project stuff?
Mandy-Moo's house?
The hours of fun and laughter.
Don't throw these away because of some very insignificant things.
The one who ends up getting hurt's only you.
The memories.
She did no wrong.
Really and truly.
We love her, like how we love you.
And all we want is for the SMIRKIES to be whole again.
All my love, till then.
I LOVE YOU ALESHA-JOY.
And so do they.

(L), Scarlett(e), with 'e' or not! :D

*Scarlette will not leave again, ever.
She will just continue being herself ;D

LOVERS FOR LIFE <3
TARA & KIARA (footnote: Kiara claims they broke up , but still, you get the picture?)
LOU-LOU & ALESHA-JOY
MANDY-MOO & SCARLETTE (forever ;D)

`FROM CLIQUESMIRKIES.

2009-09-26T06:13:00.000-07:00

WHOOOOOOSH.
*sudden appearance*

Haha! Back again!
You know right.
that Jielin started her new blog one year later than mine.
And its just so unfair she's got 248 posts and me 245 DDDD:
So in conclusion I'm not posting enough!!!!!!!
RAWR.
But not making any ammendments to that though xP

Muahahaha.
what did i wanna say?
Oh yah.
F&N coursework sucks.
What am i supposed to do? =x
I totally forgot sia.
The cupcakes looked kinda cute.
So am i supposed to describe it as cute?
And i wrote stuff like 'cupcakey' on the observation chart x.x
Oops. Credits to James ;D

OH. And.
SORRY CO D:
SORRY, SORRY, SORRY.
SORRY ZYS DIDN'T GET IN AT THE FIGURE7 FOR SHIBANYAOGU.
SORRY.
SORRY SORRY.
SORRRY.
I THINK I SAW THE WRONG CONDUCTING SIGNAL.
MY FAULT.
SORRY. SORRY. SORRY!!!
WILL NEVER DO IT AGAIN.
SORRY JUNHONG.

2009-09-21T05:30:00.000-07:00

HEYO!
Haha i'm mad.
I dunno why I so high sia.
Must be cos im on drugs =x
Kidding la! LOL.

I super love super mario man.
So hot.
hahahahahhahaha!
I studied today leh!
SS, Chapter 6.
Abit la ;DDDDDD

2009-09-18T07:17:00.000-07:00

OMG you know i cant believe i went for amaths on wednesday.
Because 1) Weinie said i must go, 2) my fren went.
muahahaha.
so i'm officially a good girl now, mission in action! :D
MIA :D LOL

Wa yesterday.
Was like goddamn fun.
We went Geylang Serai there,
learn to bake tiramisu and Quiche Lorraine.
The machines were so cool, and th cakes so inviting.
somemore the tabletop made of metal, cool one! :D
sorry im suaku.
I LOVE THURSDAYS :D
except for tuition.

Today.
CLOVES2 was funny.
Mrs Sim said, " _ _ _ is beautiful if you wanna have children"
LOL

Emo-ed.
Because I'm a total failure DDDDDDDDDDD:
At being a friend.
I guess I'm alright now though.
Muahahahah.
Ending here!

It's just the old scarlette back again!

2009-09-14T06:02:00.000-07:00

Wheeee! Juinying is back!
Okay, lame :D

Heh. Today was fun.
CLiqueSmirkies is planning a great surprise!
It'll be reeaaal fun.
Love surprising people! :D
Only a bit more left!

Today's the first day of Term4.
Guess it went pretty well.
But I skipped Amaths again.
That'll be on my conscience for a very long time.
I really didn't mean to.. I guess I just...
Nevermind.

Anyway.
I decided to revert back to my old self! *applause*
Heh.
It wouldn't be easy, I guess.
But just like what Ziqin reminded me :
If you are a good girl, your dreams will come true ;D
I wasn't a good girl today though.
D:

Tomorrow's PartB Coursework PRactical and I'm afraid.
60%midyear. wish me luck people! :D

2009-08-28T05:41:00.000-07:00

Didnt go to school today.
The doctor so bad. just because got fever only.
And sorethroat. and flu.
then MC!!!! D:
Ziqin aka Kiara missed me loh!
Very much ;D

Failed COmb. Humans and English.
History got two marks.
Kei kiang go jump level.
No Bs this time. Wakao.
Amaths, 8 marks.
tell me i rock.

going off.

2009-08-25T05:35:00.000-07:00

I realised something today,
admidst the disappointment, the anger, and the hurt.
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Sometimes, we really have no control over things.
And being sad wouldnt help.
But apart from being sad, apart from ____,
what can i do?
Answer me that please.

I'm trying.
I'm really, really trying.
Perhaps I am really .........
Haiz.

I shall smile.
I shall smile.
I shall pretend nothing has happened.
I shall be brave and live life.
And I will smile through it all.

2009-08-21T06:12:00.000-07:00

HELLO !
Here to blog.

Today was FISH PRACTICAL DAY.
And of course, yours truly cried like a baby.
I love Mdm Ng.
Was horrified when she wanted to be my cooking partner.
But she turned out to be real nice.
Initially when she wanted me to scale the fish,
I started crying like...............
But in the end I DID IT!
Very ................ly.
And i bet Ripeng and Tongyien enjoyed that.
Teasing me D:

2009-08-20T05:25:00.000-07:00

I have something to say today.
Its part of the reason why I look sad.

1) MY GRANDPA DIED.
He died on the 15th, a Saturday.
I didn't even get to get the last look,
not did i get to say goodbye.
When I went to the funeral on Monday,
he was already lying in the coffin.
With the lid closed.

Grandpa,
Though I think you don't understand English,
forgive me for not attending your wake.
I had exams and they wouldn't let me go.
I wish I had known you better.
I wish I had visited you more often.
But I guess saying all these is useless at this point of time.
When you get to Heaven,
Find Grandma and ThirdAunt.
Then live in the super big house we burnt you.
Its the 7th month now.
Do come back to visit or whatsoever.
Just.. appear in our dreams.
Hope you're happy up there.

*This is inspired by dear cousin Zhengyuan (:
His blog one more touching.

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2) Went out with SMIRKIES today.
Almost all of them.
Laughed with them.
SMIRKIES still the best.
But we all felt that something was missing.
I want her to come back D:

HAIZ.

3) tomorrow I'm gonna cook a fish.
Dig out the intestines and all.
Mdm Ng, I'm prepared.
I stared at the fish in my F&N textbook.
Maybe you won't see me tomorrow.
Gouyue said the intestines are a mass of gluey and jelly-like fibres.
Great.
And she mentioned that there're alot of them.
Wonderful.
I'm afraid.
Really D:

2009-08-05T06:36:00.000-07:00

Yay, so i decided to post ;D
Went thru alot of people's archives just now.
Just out of boredom.
Anw today I didnt skip Amaths! :D
cos if i skipped i'd have to cut myself.

went home early from CO cuz had family matters.
My mom and dad are not too happy about me going to Co everyday.
So i guess I'm banned for next week, apart from the regular practices.
Which is good in a way :D

Walked to the station with my friend.
A very very very horny friend.

and.. after so many days to unbuttoning other ppl, mine came off too D:

2009-07-29T06:12:00.000-07:00

Only said them twice.
But i wasn't a good girl today.
That pretty much explained why my dreams didn't come true.

The gist of today:
I SKIPPED AMATHS.
The reason I gave was CO.
But that's a lousy reason, cos I could easily just inform the teacher that I'd be late for CCA.
Not an excuse.
I skipped that class, nevertheless.
Thrice in four lessons, two weeks.
I made a promise today.
If I skip another Amaths lesson, I will cut myself with a penknife.
That promise'll be valid for a long, long time.
Cos I'm afraid of blood, and terrified of the empty feeling in my veins.
I'd do anything to stop myself from turning into someone else.
Anything.

Today sucked.
Hate it.
*Thank you Yuenyee for cheering me up.

2009-07-27T06:10:00.001-07:00

For a special someone who left unforgettable memories.
On them, and on me.

Sometimes the true meaning of friendship is far more simpler than you think it to be.
If so much respect is coveted when one cannot get oneself to respect the others,
that's not abiding by the law of friendship, cos things are just this way.
One earns, not demands, respect.
True friendship is really pure, forgiving, and caring.
I dont think returns should be expected from either party.
We dont even mind different characters or backgrounds.
We're still friends.
And we've been for sooo long.
We don't seem complete without you.
Do you think you could just bury the hatred and come back to us again?
You might doubt it, but everyone misses you.
Don't go.

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D: tmrw piano practical exam.
and F&N practical exam.
I won't be going for that though.
wish me good luck.
i'm afraid D:

2009-07-26T01:16:00.000-07:00

here's something i think should be funny.
this is a friend i made at the music camp.

Juinying says:
*ohno
*im doing my F&N proj
*then all the food looks so delicious D:

zj says:
*LOL
*HAHAHAHA
*ahh. stupid home econs
*i got full marks for theory and i failed practical
*cause i set fire to the stove

another one :

zj says:
*i set fire to the stoveeee! then i put styrofoam into the oven
*im pathetic at practical
*saucepan!
*my friend threw eraser dust into it during sec 2 exam

Juinying says:
*HUH
*WHY?

zj says:
*fun?
*i threw liquid paper
*into his
*end up both fail prac

Juinying says:
*LOL!!!!!!!!
*so funny

Funniest :

zj says:
*the teacher said that if she ever see us again, she'll kill herself
*the following year, she quit school

Juinying says:
*SO FUNNY!
*HAHAHAHA!

zj says:
*lol

funny right :D

2009-07-21T05:46:00.001-07:00

Wasnt a good girl today.
Very vulgar.

2009-07-17T05:12:00.001-07:00

I think Kaiying is chio, chio and chio!
The longer you look at her the chio-er she gets.
MAGIC ;D
And I super love my desk partner cuz she's YIYAN ;D
I love MdmNora MrsGoh MdmNg and every single teacher.
I wonder what's wrong with me today ? =x

Oh, and..
YUNMIN MAY BE COMING BACK :D
NO EMPTY SEATS NEXT TO ME!!!!!!
YAY!

as the story continues,...

2009-07-16T05:54:00.000-07:00

I hate life.
Miracles do not happen.
Not even if you're a good girl.
Not EVER.

2009-07-14T05:12:00.000-07:00

Today was the F&N Practical Day.
We cooked a total of four dishes in total -
1) Dhall Rice,
2) Spicy Chicken Curry,
3) Fried mixed vegetables,
4) Bride's Tears.

The dhall rice was pretty alright, only that we forgot to turn on the rice cooker.
So while the others' rice were steaming away, ours weren't.
Perfect start.
But in the end it got cooked, after a long wait of 45minutes.

We did Dove-Tailing, so we made the Bride's Tears first.
I thought it was the nicest drink/dish though.
I had great fun with the agar-agar.
Kaiying did toooooo ;D

The fried mixed vegetables.
Goodnesss.
The oil keep splattering, and we were like yelling away.
Cuz its really, really, really very painful if you kena splash.
I sacrifaced myself.
And SOMEONE had the impression that the oyster sauce wasn't enough,
so she added it like ketchup.
ALOT!
But it turned out to be super delicious.
The best ! <3
赞! (:

Spicy Curry Chicken.
I got nth to say.
Our pot of stew overflowed, like again ><
There were alot of chickens and prawns involved.
So she arrow me DDDDDDDDDD:
But, I DID THE CHICKENS. Blood and all. Gross.
And KaiYing did the prawns.
PS: Melissa was describing the prawn's 'brain juice' >< She's really cutee ;D I like her.
I admit. I cried when MdmNg was demo-ing how to remove the prawn shells and organs.

That was all, in total.
I had a nice time there.
Really.
Thank you Kaiying, Mdm Ng, Melissa, Fiona, Gouyue, Huiting, Jiamin, Samantha.
And James <3 hahahha! For helping me. Yay.

Too bad, my penguin friend!

2009-07-12T05:13:00.002-07:00

Am going mad from the ... Idontknow.
1) History. I hate Hitler although he's shuai. He's hot he's shuai so what? How can anyhow kill people. That is soooooo unfair of him can. And worse, his actions lead to us studying about him. Argh.

2) There's this CL Oral thingy tmrw and I don't know what to say. Esp to practise. So I keep coming here. Blogging in English -.-

3) Kuangit is a bad senior. Very very bad senior. Who converted my growth of 1cm taller to pico-mms and mms to laugh at me. And he called me a blurqueen in public. Humiliating! DDDDDD: What if ppl hear? I will be very ps one sia! Still take picture.

I'd better go pray hard.

2009-07-12T03:16:00.000-07:00

Hey! I changed most of the stuff in this web agagin ;D
Though I don't know how to insert pictures so the whole thing looks plain ><
But I suppose it's nicer than the previous one!~ Lala.
Linked some people and deleted some links that weren't in use anymore.
Do tag me if you want a relink or be linked ;DD Thankyou!

*
Ohno, there's a Olvl CL Oral Exam tmrw.
So not looking forward to it, my Chinese sucks =x
And there's a Practical on Tuesday.
I hate practicals D:
My dear much loved prawns, here I come! DDD:

:D Scarlett.

2009-07-02T05:48:00.000-07:00

today was alright.
i like ;D

1) i went to school with cheuktow and junli.

2) i took my temperature.

3) juinying became rafiqin and rafiqin became juinying.

4) i said hi to yiyan.

5) i liked physics.

6) i liked chemistry.

7) i loved MrsGoh and her Emaths.

8) i hated chinese.

9) i wish Mr Yip would come back.

10) i crapped with shiqin.

11) xinru taught Mdm Nora <3 how to fold paper cranes.

12) Xinru swore she saw Mdm Nora staring at the new-made crane and saying,
"peep peep, bird passing!" which is so very very cute of her.

13) i love school.

14) I LOVE MDM NORA. AND MRS GOH.

2009-06-25T06:05:00.000-07:00

今天真好玩 !
today i went out to work on a project with my group,
KAIYING JUSTIN AND TONGYIEN ;D
our grp's totally lame and we click well,
so it was SOOOOO FUN!

met at AMK@9am DD:
sorry, my fault.
then justin, surprisingly, reached first!
OMGOMG!
then the rest arrived and off we went to find places.
went to check out a landshop first,
but i didnt wanna go in.
so we headed off to the National Library ;DDDD
was laming throughout, kaiying and me.
we went to bugis junction to plan first.
then we realised that
LIBRARY'S COMPUTER NO THUMBRIVE SLOT
&CANNOT USE PPT!!
so. we went to kaiying's house.
which is totally big, cool and pretty ;D
tongyien and justin did alot of things to my friendster.
SORRY JAMESHO! ><

that's about all.
i'm not breaking my promise ;D

2009-06-24T07:12:00.000-07:00

post dedicated to all sheng-mates.

OHAIYO-SAN!

WATASHIWA JUINYING-CHAN!

AISHITERU DESKA!

SUKI.. JUINYING DESU?

;DDDD

2009-06-24T06:23:00.000-07:00

I LOVE MANGO ! ;D
hahah!
today was totally fun.
i went to my aunt's house to escape reality
to spend the day.
i goofed around with my cousins, missed him,
meddled with the agar-agar powder ;D
we made agar-agars.
its green in color.
wanted to add different colors initially, but aunt said it'd turn out
HORRID.
hahaha! so i didn't.
I LOVED TODAY ;D

2009-06-22T07:22:00.000-07:00

replying tags, once in a blue moooon :D

Juinying to ziqin - I AM NOT YOUR FATHER!
Juinying to A.K - hees. thankyou. updated ;D
Juinying to SEOWTING - HELLOHELLO ! (: of course i still rmb you :D
Juinying to JINGYI - JINGER! ;D
Juinying to ZIQIN, - helloooo back.
Juinying to s0hhuixin - HEYYY! alright :D missed you loads.
Juinying to jamie - scores and instruments representatives rock! yesyes, i agree :D
Juinying to Liwen ! :D - Hi :D yes, i know you C;
Juinying to John - sure.
Juinying to YIQING! - basketball!!
Juinying to JIELIN - you loh, dummmmmmmy :D
Juinying to ZIQIN, - hello
Juinying to Jameš - Hello! :D
Juinying to JINGYI - jinger :)
Juinying to z - o0 you are?
Juinying to Sunflower Clicker! - thaaaaankyou :D
Juinying to juanning - I LOVE YOU TOOOOOO :D